Dream

Exam period is back. Typically I would hog a meeting room to mug in. But this time round, I am not doing such things. Partially because of Jangkrik, but maybe just because my bed is getting too comfy.

Anyways, here's a little something I want to share. I am getting hooked with this band called Skillet. According to Yanadi (probably one of those music know-it-alls around) this band genre is alternative. And according to Adit (another one), I should listen to Linkin Park as well. I came to know this band from a facebook's my heroes ability page. I was hooked after 2 songs ('Savior' and 'Rebirth'). Right now there are 10 skillet songs in my shuffle. Well, I have only 30+ songs in my shuffle. Probably I could consider myself a panhead haha....

Next topic I am going to ramble about is Amazing Grace, that hymn. Out of 6 stanzas, I only know 2 stanzas. Despite this, and the no-mention of God on those stanzas, it is simply one of favorite songs of mine. Well, I might not have mentioned it but generally I enjoy rock, rap, etc compared to mellow songs. But this apparently does not carry over to my favorite type of music (Christian songs). Why I mentioned Amazing Grace here then? Do you notice that in all 6 stanzas of the song, only a 'God' and a 'The Lord' are stated? And it is not in the first few stanzas usually sung in churches... That is, if stanzas 4 and 6 were to be omitted, you (if you happen not to know the song previously) will think that this song is referred to a girl called Grace! Yet, it is simply one of the greatest hymn ever, because of its message. Oh well, I did not realize this till 2 days ago!

Oh, and this might be comical, yet let me write it here haha. Suddenly I found out that my wedding day is tomorrow! I was truly shocked. The venue would be in a restaurant located on a ship. Apparently a friend of mine opened this restaurant with her sister. I ran to this photo studio where I am supposed to take a picture in formal setting. Because I need to wait for these two girls furiously posing for the camera, I was told to play XBOX first. Lo and behold, I was shot by a cameraman, saying that natural pose is better for the picture. Then I realized that I havent bought a ring. I went to Orchard Road, entered this shop in Mandarin Hotel to buy one. Then, the attendant told me that they have closed. After that, she asked me why did I not buy the ring earlier (10am) while I flirted with the other attendant. Well, a little disappointed I walked out of the shop and saw Ivan (the Ivan, my cell leader), interestingly he was wearing his typical long sleeve roundneck and jeans. He said that he wont come for my wedding. And after that, I woke up! Luckily, my wedding is not tomorrow!!!

PS: Reminder to self, dont attempt to buy a wedding ring JUST before the wedding haha.

Voor...

Voor... I update this blog...

PS: Ok, I know this post is almost meaningless. Just want to say not that I abandon this blog, just that no stuff to write right now. Tsk!

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With fighting spirit comes willingness.
With willingness comes hardwork.
With hardwork comes improvement.
With improvement comes success.

A talentless person might not be able to surpass a genius.
But with fighting spirit, the gap in achievement can be reduced.

CIP

When was the last time you do CIP (abbr. Community Involvement Project) voluntarily? Before yesterday, for me it was.... err... cant remember. Yes I did few CIP social works; flag day, duty for sports meet etc, but that was because I need some CCA points. Well, indeed we can contribute to the society we live in, in many different ways. But when did we show our direct care towards those in need???

For me, it was yesterday. Last week, my FA (Family Altar, small group in church) leader, NB, sms-ed all the members that there would be a social-related project this Sunday. It was kind of 'do good, no string attached' thing. Initially my response was 'WTH...' which was, of course, not the way I replied to NB. To be politically correct, I replied with a simple 'ok'. So yeah, that was the background story.

Yesterday, then... My FA was split into smaller group of 4. Then, my headache started. Come on, if you ask me to host an impromptu game for 20 persons without, I am sure I am able to do it. But impromptu social stuff... Despite this and my sleepiness due to not sleeping the day before (coz NB said on YRC Sat, please come for FA) I did it anyways, leaving all the planning to the rest.

From the activity yesterday I learned a few things. First, I am really an executor. You see, it was easy for me to plan routes, bought that 7 bottles of pet bottle drinks and talked to that security guard. Well, maybe this can be used further though I would not know how. But hey, a learning point rite? Second, I walk pretty fast. Many times I realized that my group mates were walking 3-4 steps behind me. Maybe I wanted to finish the thing fast subconsciously because I knew there was not enough time to do all the things Renanda wanted to do. Third, I am too practical. I did not give a damn about those street buskers because 'they earn more than 5 bucks per hour wad?' which is my minimum wage. Maybe good maybe bad...

Ok, thats all about the activity yesterday. NB, if you read this, here you go, the piece of reflecion... But then again, even that you didnt tell us to do so, I'll write it anyways...

Number

7, out of which 2 are M types, 2 are I types...

Being righteous, Christian way

In this world of relativity, they say being righteous is relative. What is right for a person might not be right for another (those who are thinking a lame stuff, something to do with directions, please wake up for a while). This is true in real world. Take this for example: 'white lies'... Is it right or not? For my standard, no.

Let me sidetrack a little bit from my main point here. It is still not right to lie even when your circumstances force you to do so. Reason being, there is almost no such thing as white lies... 'White lies' fundamental meaning is lies that are harmless. But what if the so called 'white lies' being found out at the point where you are being asked... Now you are harming yourself, which contradicts the basis of 'white lies'.

Oh and of course 'jocose lies' fall on different categories with 'white lies'. My view on 'jocose lies'... As a prankster myself, inevitably 'jocose lies' would still be there. For entertainment sake, sometimes my friends enter the DoTA game we set as other people. In itself it is a 'jocose lie' isn't it? For me do it, but reveal it by the end of the day, at most. (PS: I am not convinced that 'jocose lie' is a lie after all)

But (let me back to my main point here) in real life, it is pretty hard to keep my own standard of righteousness... Lets just say it is very very difficult in answering truthfully that I cant hand in this lab report on time because I am lazy. Ring a bell, anyone? Well, people might argue that my standard of righteousness is the standard of a pope, maybe. Oh come on, such a small lie wont hurt anyone, right? It might even be beneficial in the long term. But no, as a proclaimed Christian, the only standard is Christlikeness. No compromise.

Having said that, it IS impossible for a person to be righteous 365/24/7. Yup, I said that. It is impossible. Only by God's grace a person can be right-ed. Which is saying that a person, no matter how 'holy' he is, has no capacity at all to be righteous. But let us examine this.

It is impossible for me to remain righteous for a year.
It is still impossible for me to remain righteous for a month.
It is near impossible for me to remain righteous for a day.
It is quite possible for me to remain righteous for an hour.
But it is very possible for me to remain righteous for a minute.

So, my prayer from now on would be something along this line. 'Dear God, would You mind guiding me each minutes, so that I can live in righteousness every hour? N while we are at it, would you please guide me each hour, so that I can be righteous every day?'

For a person ass holy as me (misspelling and irony intended) it might be impossible. Yeah, it is impossible I think. But if God has invoked my heart to embark on this lets-try-to-be-righteous journey, I guess He would enable me. After all, nothing is impossible with Him... Let's see how long I can last...

PS: This post is actually not intended to be a long one. But maybe God wants me to write as I used to write... Note that I havent write down my thought (deep thought, that is) for pretty long time. I searched my blog up to April 2008 but found no such post... Sigh, how people can change...

TGIO

I reckon I am reaching my limit. As the IRC 'Camp' passed, my immediate response was 'Thank God! It's over!'. Maybe this is the first time I'm glad that a 'camp' is over. Normally I would be like 'OMG! So fast???" and yeah, that is a good indication that phew... I am reaching my limit. Right after I am stepping up in IRC, the busy-ness level has increased by leaps and bounds. Took me awhile to adjust, but as the result my time has been really sacrificed. So now, I think it is a good time for me to readjust my life. No MHA, no DoTA, no IRC event for a week. Should be enough time to do something about my RL life. 24 hours a day, that 3 can combined take 6 hours of a day (that's actually a lot), imagine if I put it into study... Crazy ba!