Many Things...

I am supposedly doing my MNO essay thing now. But hell, I'm stuck. No problem, I'll get it fixed one way or another. So that's of no worry... Anyways, yesterday when I went to the YRC Saturday service, instead of taking down the normal sermon note, I wrote down what I thought. Upon reading it now, I realize that I have super weird thought which might be useful if I write it down. So, as usual, I record it here. The message was about loving the unloveable. The Scripture reading was on the shortie, ZACCHAEUS (Luk 19:1-10), how he was easily the most despicable living human then but Jesus came to his house to nongkrong (Indo for sit around and relax). Below is the transcript of my thoughts.

290308 1847h
If I can find solace in the Word of God,
why is it the ones who makes me stressed up
are Christians who are supposed to be the
Fifth Gospel?
Without the realization that no man is perfect,
I would definitely not a Christian by now
~JK~ /disappointed with all few people
who claim themselves as serious Christians
-saigangking- /so I look to You

There are more stuff I wrote. But those are irrelevant by now. Anyways, the main point is that the phrase 'The Fifth Gospel'. It is like how true lah... Similar to people normally see Christianity from the behaviour of the Christians, given any companies, organizations or bodies, the best way to look at the organization is to look at its members. But you see, in current time, sometimes mission statement of the organizations are not fully followed by the members of the organizations. And its a little sad isnt it?

Probably the main reason why there are complains against organizations is that the deviation from the mission statement. Lets take the current mass exodus from PGPR. Background: the cutoff point for PGP this year is a whooping 45 point, which is a great leap from last year 38. This is significant because there is a quota of 40 points for each category of CCA (organizational, aesthetics, sports, community service, academics). As such, those who are actively involved in a type of CCA is guaranteed not to be able to stay in PGP for next year.

The mission statement of OSA is "to provide, in partnership with our students, a total University experience that builds a strong NUS spirit". You can see the flaw in the mission statement. Why would they put "in partnership with our students" if students are not consulted in the cutoff points at the first place. Couple this with the one-sided decision to increase the room rates for the next two years, this shows how the mission statement is not fulfilled by OSA. But hey, the "NUS spirit" part is fulfilled... With this incident, those dissatisfied NUS students made a group in Facebook on this matter.

PS: I am under the influence of MNO.

Stepping Down

Hmm... 9 hours to step down from Bizcom Resources Manager... Time does fly a little bit too fast at the so called blistering pace. Lets see what's next... Where's my Bizcom shirt by the way?

*edited 1552h*

Came an hour too early for last MC meeting... Wew... Just a note.. Ironic isnt it? I believe quite a lot of people asked me help on getting CCA points but after all, I am the only one who is not getting the accomodation. Next time should follow the hunch... I've been worrying 40 pts not enough... Then... You see...

*edited 0244h next day*

Stepped down. In a way I'm glad one of my responsibility is off.. But a bit feeling weird. Seems like I dont want to let go of my post.

My Stand on Christian Denominations

I am not anti Christian denominations.
I am just not supporting Christian denominations.


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This post is largely (if not fully) inspired by Y.

What Maketh An Engineer

These cool words I read when I was working (as usual) in Foodgle. There was this exchange student (from UK I think, judging the spelling of some of the words, but forget from which uni) sitting right in front of me, facing the other way. And thus, I could read what was written on the back of his tee. Apparently he was wearing his faculty tee, coz these things were on it. Presenting to you, probably a mission statement of an engineer:

I take the vision that comes from dreams
and apply the magic of science and mathematics
adding the heritage of my profession
and my knowledge of nature's materials
to create a design

I organise the efforts and skills of my fellow workers
employing the capital of the thrifty
and the products of many industries
and together we work toward our goal
undaunted by hazards and obstacles

And when we have completed our task
all can see
that the dreams and plans have materialised
for the confort and welfare of all

I am an Engineer
I serve Mankind
by making dreams come true

100th Post: Tribute To My Dad

Basically this post is my own way to pay respect to my dad, the wisest man I have ever personally known. Despite his SMP-only (Indonesian Junior High School) education, inside his mind, there are hell lot of brilliant thing running simultaneously. If I were to be in a battle of wits, and my opponent to be him, I would definitely surrender before the battle.

I have written this for quite some times ago. I have decided to put this as 100th post out of an impulse. Before this, I have completely forgotten about this piece of note I pasted on my wall, but after playing a little D2 just now, suddenly I am reminded of this. I would scan this piece of paper and paste it down here later. My dad has so far (hopefully capped at two) suffered from two heart attacks, and the following is written a month after the second one, whereby he complained that he had difficulties in breathing. When I decided to camp outside his room, I wrote this thing:

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25 Des 2007
1.45 am, my dad is still alive
about 1/2 hr b4
Mike: God, plz do not take my dad
away yet, jangan panggil pulang
dl ya? at least kalo toh panggil
pulang, kasi aku menit where
dia sadar, sehat n get his mind
clear so that I can absorb his
wisdom wo for the last time. But
if I can have it my way, plz
dont call him home yet.
* silence *
sekitar 5 menit kemudian, aku
teringat Papi pernah bilang kurang
lebih gini, gak akan dipanggil dl.
Tuhan masih mau pake Papi & Mami
secara luar biasa. Aku jg inget

(next page)


Mami pernah cerita bhw "suamimu akan
mendukung pelayananmu". Ini sebuah
nubuatan n pasti akan digenapi toh?
Jadi pasti Papi gak akan mati sampe
ini terjadi.
God: Do you choose to believe?
Mike: I choose to believe but 4 safety
reason, shdnt I be here?
God: Do you choose to believe or to worry?
I'll take care of your dad.
Mike: Oh,fine,God! I choose to believe
but take care of my dad, yeah!?!
25 Des 2007, 1.0am
My dad is still alive, can hear his
snorts down there. Im gonna sleep and
let God take care of my dad.
-JK-
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What I have written above is closely following what I wrote that night. It actually summarizes my worry and my relief. I do hope those who read this post would treasure their time with their close ones (parents, family, friends...) as sometimes, you wouldnt know when your time with them ends.

PS: Haha... Nonk... 100th post liao?

A Young Fella's Prayer

Dear God, I want to be a good husband
Teach me how to love my wife
As much as You love me

I want to think of no other than her
I want to fulfil all her needs
And I want her to be happy all the time

Let me embrace her all the time
Even when distance exists
Just want to tell her that I love her

If she is down
Let me be Your channel to motivate her up
When she is weak
Teach me to empower her

Dear God, I want to be a good father
Teach me how to love my child
As much as You love me

I want my child to be better than me
I want him to succeed in his life
And I want him to love You even more than me

I want to hug him to sleep
Such that he could sleep soundly
Knowing that his father always keeps him safe

I want to teach him what I have learned
So that as he steps into his world
He knows what is it all about

I want to work at my hardest
For my wife
For my children
Show me my ways Lord
As I step into the unknowns of the future
I want to be the best I can be
Not for myself
But for those whom I am going to love in my future

This is my prayer Lord
Remind me of this always
In Jesus' name
Amen

118th Post : Tribute To Them

Okay, first of all, I have written this after the 117th post, hence the title, but I choose to publish this thing to as a post before even my 100th just because I feel like doing so haha... First person to find this, please leave comment. 'Them' here points ah... later you know yourself... 'They' has been close to my pillar of support whose physical presence normally could recharge me. Here it goes.

One day I kneel at the side of my bed
And said a prayer
Not the usual Good night, God
Not the usual Keep her safe, God
This time, I am praying for my need
A friend, whose existence could energize me
At times when I need them.

God, I want a friend,
who has a deep understanding
who can be trusted on private matters.
He gave me Adit.

God, I want a friend,
who is well-rounded
who can make me proud calling him a friend.
He gave me Aldo.

God, I want a friend,
who possesses an analytical mind
who has an intelligent yet casual views of this world.
He gave me Asec.

God, I want a friend,
who has a strong determination to stay at the top
who at the same time can entertain me.
He gave me Dank.

God, I want a friend,
who studies in the same course as me
who can remind me if I have any tests I might forget.
He gave me Edwin.

God, I want a friend,
who is very intelligent and hardworking
who can be so fun-loving at the same time.
He gave me Michael.

God, I want a friend,
who is enthusiastic enough to drive me to my onst state
who can make me laugh with wild arguments.
He gave me Sumitro.

God, I want a friend,
who can be as lame as me
who can be as deep as me too.
He gave me Teddy.

God, I want a friend,
who is quiet yet knowing a lot, from A to Z
who can be corrected by me without being angry.
He gave me Wilson.

God, I want a friend,
who has a cheerful face that can lighten my mood
who always laughs at my joke, no matter how unfunny it is.
He gave me Winong.

But God, I want A friend
Not so much
As such that I could make a soccer team.

He came to me
And he silently whispered to my mind.
Son, a friend is good.
But a great company such as the one
I have created for you
Would colour your life
In the barren place you stay in.
Would be stronger pillar of support
In the hard environment you live in.
Would equip you with many knowledge
In the dry path you walk in.

And I am so thankful for that.

Thank you, friends...

PS: No protest, if you protest, I'll kick your ass for trying to rearrange my thought.

Star Performer

According to Robert E. Kelley (Carnegie Mellon), these are the concepts need to be adopted by average guys to turn themselves into star performers:
1. Initiative - do more than jobscope
2. Networking - getting information before required to do so
3. Self-management - see the big picture of life
4. Perspective - the broader the better
5. Leadership - bring out the best in others
6. Followership - help others, others will help you
7. Teamwork - every star needs a team and vice versa
8. Organizational savvy - avoiding dirty office politics
9. Show and tell - communicative, deliver ideas well

Taken from Kinicki-Williams: Management - A Practical Introduction, pg 447, my MNO1101 textbook... Good one, hope it can be applied...

NVAC

Out of a sudden, this past two days I have been deeply involved in NVAC. For the benefit of those who dont know what NVAC actually is, it is a voluntary organization here under NUSSU. Well, actually it is not a big issue, considering I am their Dir of Log. Just that I am normally the invisible MC member, never come for meeting, never been active before, only the one who is to be approached if they need the standees and banners. Interestingly, these days (pre open house) all the projects want me to work. Of course the work is saigang (if you still dunno wad this means.... wahlau...) type lah.. My usual field of work.

Here's the list of what I had to (or rather volunteered to) do:
1. Collect 6 tins for BHBH4 (Bigger Hearts Bigger Hands --> or is it the other way round?)
2. Wash car to help PPT (Project Pinaya Tazaung --> did I spell that correctly?)
3. Book few stuffs from NUSSU for MINDS YCK
4. Accompanied NVAC Camp VPD to dungeon
5. Collect goodies for the Volunteers' Network
6. Appointed as log helper for Charity Fiesta

And as I have mentioned, all in just the time span of two days... And my body is aching right now... Need some good massages. Oh man... the disadvantages of being a masseuse, cannot massage self...

Previously, after the NUANSA thing, I have told myself that I would not touch logistics anymore. Say NO to log. But then again, I realised (see yesterday post) that my passion lies on logistics. After all, if my passion lies there, might as well put my energy to it. Who knows I became damn good with it n can use that experience in my workplace. Maybe I would build a warehouse complex or something like Surabaya's Margomulyo in the future...

PS: Project MSN done in a grand total of 16 hours... Got followers, though theirs are flawed. Hahaha.... Will write abt this in near future.. Just for my own personal souvenir.

Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs

Yesterday I was coming for the MNO1101 (well, dont exactly remember the number) lecture. That mod is a management module. It was just happened that yesterday was the lecture on motivation. Indeed, just wad i need. Anyways, I wouldnt really like to elaborate on what Maslow was actually all about, but in the case somebody die die want to know... Here's the link to wiki. Self service please...

Probably you can see that I have (or at least, I think I have) arrived at the state of self-actualization (sounds like "Muga no Kyōchi" of Prince of Tennis eh?) regarding doing logistic. Well... maybe I could utilize further to reach Teni Muhō No Kiwami then. Hahaha... (too much PoT)

What I have learned yesterday I put it in good use today. After doing a little analysis yesterday, I found out that I am only at the level of "social needs" when it comes to studying. Psychologists out there please do correct me if I am wrong here. I am studying just because my friends are. So my emphasis would be whether I can have fun with my friends upon studying. Hence, following the pyramid, I have no "esteem motivation" aka no need to gain recognition.

Earlier this morning I had a tutorial and a lecture. Meanwhile, after joyfully setting my alarm clock to 8.30am I went to sleep yesterday. Guess what time I woke up? 8.30am... snooze... 8.45am... stunned 8.55am... fell asleep 9.30am... You see... the pattern is that I would come to realization that I have something on, but no mood to move myself from the bed and thus, I would fell asleep again. 9.45am snooze... 9.50am... stunned... 1000am... smsed Yanadi, needed an external help in waking me up! You see, given that I need for a social motivation, I get a friend to wake me up while I woke up already. And no price for guessing, I attended the 1000am lecture (though I came qt late) thanks to Yan... Speaking of which MoM online test coming up! This sat going to do it with the rest of the ME guys. Yay! Social need fulfilled I guess...

PS: project msn update 9/11, 2 more to go!

*updated 1 minute after previous*
PS2: 10/11, last one!

Parental Advisory

Just now when I was working, my colleague was saying that parents should have no say in choosing of their children's choice of spouse. Her reason being, after all the one who is going to live with the person is the child him/herself. What do you think?

My own opinion, my parents must approve my choice. Besides showing my piety, if my parents disapprove my choice, that means my choice sucks like hell. After all, my parents have much less criteria than me.

So, what is your view?

FCS: The Midterm

Actually 8 hrs from now I am going to face my midterm test for the Feedback Control System and it is going to be open book. And it is commonsensical that open book means tough questions... Oh well, now I cant really study due to internal mindmess which makes my brain's system response is first order with a super high time constant. Given the time back, I would like to turn the time all the way to the day when I left for Nong Khai... And, probably I would change the sequence of actions. But then again, given that it happened that way, so there must be God's plan in that...

Anyways, my salary day was 2 days ago. Happy! The fact that I received a lot more than what I have expected itself for me is already a blessing. Moreover, when I checked my bank account today (or technically, yesterday), there were extra $25 in that account. That means the reimbursement from NUANSA has been in. Wew.. Now I dont really need to think about cash this month. Can focus my mind to mend my problems.

Speaking about focus, these days PINUS AGM took a lot of my brain power, killing a lot of the cells... I am glad that my personal agenda has been fulfilled *wink* and now what's left is waiting for the AGM itself (this Sat) and preparing back up plans if there were mistakes in my plan wahahaha.... That makes me sound like an evil tactician eh? Everything is fine for now, but I know when everything seems to be alright, something is amiss. Should be prepared in any given conditions...

Kies, qlbbl rglbj Tiy die rgw 'xiubxuswbxw' qgwew u nwwr gwe. Agw ua bwle owedwxr... Oeikkt, wcwb owedwxr...

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Do you notice that once you have no romantic interest, it is easier to bring out yourself? And on the contrary, it just difficult to do it well when romantic feeling is involved?

Still learning

Still learning

Still learning

Still learning

Still learning

Was I too reckless then, charging in like a wild bull and running away like a wounded cow? And am I too reckless now, trying to emulate it?

Lalala

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